Pondering Heart: Not Here, Not Now

Dear Holy Friends,   There was a nice frost on the ground this morning, and the pond had a sheen of ice. Aah . . . that looks like Christmas. We may have flurries tonight and tomorrow. Aah, again. The peace that no one can explain but only happens on Christmas is covering my household. I LOVE Christmas Eve!   in His grip, Chandra     Not Here, Not Now   Not here, not now, I just want to be at home, it's not time, cannot be, just Joseph and me alone. Why a stable,not even a room is there really nowhere to stay? Thought we'd be home in time, but the pains started today. Not here, not now, not a barn instead of my home, did we do wrong Father God, why are we alone? I'm scared Lord, it hurts Lord, can't say I understand you, my faith is big but my trust is small I'm weary, I cannot remember what to do. . . . not here, not now . . .   ~Chandra Lynn Smith ~